So things aren’t getting any easier!!  Thought by now I’d have the swing of things, and not be craving all the food I have restricted myself from having on the fast…. BUT NO!!! The cravings are still here! Alive and well!  Is it frustrating? Yes, but should it be surprising? No!

The whole point of this fast has been to increase my personal discipline, and increase my spiritual life, and how could I do that if it was easy? Right?!?! Right 🙁  I’ve got to put the frown, because that’s how my body/flesh feels right now.  Eventually I know I’m on my way to a 🙂 because I am slowly with everyday increasing my faith.  Each day I see God strengthen me, when I feel like just giving up and sinking my teeth into a piece of meat! lol… it’s happening slowly, but I am learning how to accept the struggle of saying NO to my self and my flesh. 

As I listened to Joyce Meyers today I was reminded that ‘killing the flesh’ involves lots of discomfort, and I would say that accurately describes how I’ve been feeling these past 12 days…. A GREAT DEAL OF DISCOMFORT!!! 

In exercising the discipline of self control it is much like exercising my biceps.  By pumping iron my bicep muscle get stronger and more visible just like how saying no to sugar, meat, bread etc. has been increasing my ‘self control muscles’ over the past 12 days. 

I’m so thankful to have made it to day 12, and I’m proud of myself for not giving up…. BUT I ain’t gonna lie!!! IT’S BEEN ROUGH!  and I’m slowly realizing that tomorrow, or the next day, or the next day after that won’t be any easier.

Sooooooooooooooooooooooo my prayer for tonight… Lord Help me BIG TIME!! Please Please give me strength as I realize that without You there’s no hope for success.

AMEN… Goodnight day 12